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F R I E N D S . O N L Y [Aug. 8th, 2009|02:32 pm]
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(no subject) [Jun. 2nd, 2005|02:53 pm]
[Current Mood |cheerfulcheerful]
[Current Music |billy idol= eyes without a face]



please follow!

i know that i said i wouldn't..but this username just doesn't cut it anymore.
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(no subject) [Jun. 1st, 2005|10:59 am]
[Current Music |the cure=just like heaven]

Show me how you do that trick
The one that makes me  s cr e a m  she said
The one that makes me  l a u g h  she said
And threw her arms around my neck
Show me how you do it
And I promise you I promise that
I’ll run away with you
I’ll run away with you
Spinning on that dizzy edge
I kissed her  f a c e  and kissed her  h e a d
And dreamed of all the different ways I had
To make her  g  l o w
Why are you so far away? she said
Why won’t you ever know that I’m in love with you
That I’m in love with you

Y o u
Soft and only
Y o u
Lost and lonely
Y o u
Strange as angels
Dancing in the deepest oceans
Twisting in the water
You’re just like a   d r e a m

Daylight licked me into shape
I must have been asleep for days
And moving lips to breathe her name
I opened up my eyes
And found myself alone alone
Alone above a raging sea
That stole the only girl I loved
And drowned her deep inside of me

S o f t   and  o n l  y
L o s t   and   l o n e l y
Just like heaven
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(no subject) [Jun. 1st, 2005|03:12 am]
[Current Mood |satisfiedsatisfied]
[Current Music |the cure- the end of the world]

while some people find jesus
in their lives, i found the cure.

emo roots, yo. although i generally dislike modern emo.

this is officially my favorite band- of all time. my apologies to duran duran.... sorry simon- i'll always love your beautiful british voice, but... robert smith has replaced you. robert smith appeals to me so much because to me his voice sounds like:

[formula time]: [(singer of oasis) + (singer of coldplay) + (bono) + (david bowie)= (singer of the cure)]

if you haven't heard any cure songs, check this one out. it's what i'm currently obsessing over, and it's now my background music on:

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(no subject) [May. 31st, 2005|05:59 pm]

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(no subject) [May. 31st, 2005|05:36 pm]
[Current Mood |happyhappy]

we had a few problems surrounding the wedding.

one being that my mother's wedding band was lost. the night before the actual wedding. the best man didn't want to hold onto it [despite the fact it was his fucking job!] and my mother and carmine somehow managed to lose it. i went out with shea for a while after the rehearsal dinner, and my phone was still on vibrate from being at the church... around 12:oo i look at it and it says i had 38 fucking missed calls! my mom was so upset and only was able to have two hours of sleep, but in the morning her mother helped her feel better.

my grandmother says to my mother, "well, i lost my father just before my wedding, be thankful all you lost was the ring." and it made my mother calm down. my grandmother gave to my mother her mother's ring which my grandmother was going to leave for her for when she died... but passed it on to her now.

and it came together rather nicely, though, because that ring was the same ring that my grandmother's mother wore on her hand the day she was married in the same church that my mother was married in.

i thought i was going to be able to watch the ceremony and hold myself together...that wasn't the case, i was crying a lot because it finally hit me that after nineteen years, my mother's now married. it's crazy!

the reception was just perfect. everything was so grand, we had a blast! my friends were there, shea got along with my family [they all love him] and the weather was so gorgeous. arriving at my house after the reception with all the family and my friends was great too, we had so much fun out on the deck! my uncle dee [the comedian that he is] let out a huge fart and proceeded to joke about it, cracking up EVERYBODY on the deck..

our neighbors were lighting off fireworks [screamers] and they scared us because we never knew when they would light them and it was startling as hell, one time shea got picked on by my uncle because he jumped like eight feet when the firework went off with that look of devastation! LMAO

but then yesterday wasn't so good.

my mother and carmine stayed at the hyatt and were supposed to leave for lake george right away... i was upstairs on the computer while my grandmother tells me that she found some blood in her urine. i told her she needs to make an appointment with a doctor and that it was gross and will be taken care of.. but then a little later i go downstairs to do something and there's a fucking trail of blood all around the house. it looked like something got murdered in my house, and my grandmother's walking around like doing her usual chores and shit and acting like there isn't blood pouring out of her. i screamed and kept screaming and then i told her i wanted to call an ambulance to come get her because i was freaking out too much to drive, but she screamed for me not to call one.. and when she screamed she told me more was coming out, so it made me freak out all the more. i call up my mother, [i'm sure it must've sounded like a 911 call] and told her to race over with carmine. they came, and it took her like an hour to get on her clothes and they went.

she's apparently okay, but when i saw the blood i thought she was dead.

it scared me very much, but she's alright. and my mother and carmine left for lake george today instead of yesterday now for their honeymoon.

i found a really good site [http://www.mp-studio.com/top80/enter.html] that has sound clips of so many different 80s songs... it's my heroin. i put like a hundred of them onto a cd and it's going to be a great summer cd.
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(no subject) [May. 31st, 2005|05:20 pm]
[Current Mood |creativecreative]

i finally uploaded some pictures

from the trip up to vermont/ny, the rehearsal dinner, and some misc.

at the church rehearsal
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(no subject) [May. 30th, 2005|01:37 am]
[Current Mood |touchedtouched]

today was one of the best days of my life,

quite possibly the best.

it was the best day for so many different reasons, i'm so tired so i'll state the basic reasons and elaborate later.

[a] my family being altogether and us having such a genuinely good time

[b] the romance that seemed to reach a new level between shea and i

[c] the best of my friends all around, transforming into nearly members of my family, they feel like blood

[d] today two people who found eachother are officially united, for the rest of their lives [so give them strength, hee!]

[e] how beautiful i felt.. it's something i rarely experience

today was special. i think know everyone felt it.
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(no subject) [May. 28th, 2005|03:37 pm]
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tomorrow's my mom's big day!

it's so hard to type with long nails.

i'm excited&nervous&anxious&mellow.

shea almost had to cancel out on the rehearsal dinner tonight, and it made me sob. that isn't good.

i need to take a chill pill.
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(no subject) [May. 25th, 2005|11:38 am]
happy three month anniversary, shea!!!!
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(no subject) [May. 22nd, 2005|07:58 pm]
[Current Mood |listlesslistless]
[Current Music |Boston: More Than A Feeling]

Dear Shea,

I missed you a lot this weekend. Knowing that you aren't twenty minutes away in your beautiful home in Wilton results in my feeling a slight discomfort. Not necessarily a worry, but a feeling that something special is missing. I hope you are enjoying yourself in Florida, and I hope you wish your family well for me. Especially your cousin's new baby- please send that little angel some kisses telepathically for me. This coming weekend will be very special, my dear, in many ways. I simply can not wait to see you again and run my fingers through your soft blonde hair.

Always and forever,

P.S: Please stop being in my nightmares. :[ :*

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(no subject) [May. 22nd, 2005|07:12 pm]
[Current Mood |draineddrained]
[Current Music |b-52s: private idaho]

i love salem.

we didn't do a lot really last night, just stayed in the motel and drank. jenn got a little buzzed, my mom didn't drink at all [she thinks she might be pregnant], but i got shitfaced.

we had a six pack of green apple smirnoff twists [i had three or four?], a bottle of peach schnapps [i drank nearly half], and two shot bottles of tequila that are yet to be drank.

we played some cards and ate pizza, and we played bullshit for peach shots... i called false bullshit a lot because i wanted to catch jenn and have HER take shots, but she was always so fucking HONEST that i ended up with nearly the whole deck of cards and so many shots in my system. just about the funniest quote of the night came when i got frustrated with playing... i was so drunk and just go, "i don't want to play anymore.. this game is all about trust and i'm skeevy of you lying bitches" hahahah!

another funny thing is when i was talking to jenn about rice crispy treats and i go, "didn't they make those out of life cereal too, as a snack? ...oh wait, that's milk-n-cereal bars"

during the day we watched the money pit, and so last night in my drunken slumber i had a really fucked up dream.
shea lived in the house from the money pit, yet it was a lot bigger and had like four floors with crazy fancy staircases. the neighbor was a woman and had a daughter, and kept stealing cars from shea's family..and i was over the house and shea told me to watch my car. i'm looking out the window and the lady's going near it, and instead of blocking her i run up staircases to get shea......that dream sort of ended there, but then i had a second one that made me wake up wanting to kill him.

in the dream i was in a food store simliar to stew leonard's- in the way that it had a maze-like layout to it. i'm buying up shit, and meet up with shea. he's doing that german thigh slapping dance, and i ask him why he's doing it [while highly amused], and he tells me he was practicing for when he goes to germany for six months. I go, "you never told me about that! when's that?" in a worried tone... he tells me, "in nine days."
"NINE DAYS?!?!?!?!"

i ran away sobbing because [1] he never mentioned it before and i felt like he didn't even care enough about me to mention it and [2] being away for six months would wreck the relationship. i think.

after crying, in my dream i see jenn. i tell her to go with me and i was going to find him again to beat him up for being an uncaring bastard, but then i woke up.

jenn told me i was moaning a lot in my sleep, and thought i was hurt.

i didn't want that to happen, i wish i could've slept quietly..that's what happens when i drink and sleep.

i didn't take many pictures, i've really been good with that lately, it's weird. i took random pictures of things outside the car though.

i guess my little addiction to taking pictures of everyone and everything is dying down..that's a good thing.
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(no subject) [May. 20th, 2005|12:24 am]
new. layout.
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(no subject) [May. 19th, 2005|02:33 pm]
[Current Mood |happyhappy]
[Current Music |oingo boingo: nasty habits]

in honor of my mom's wedding

that's approaching in less than two weeks [may 29th],

i got more blonde highlights.

a good six or so months ago i had it done for the first time, and started to miss them as my natural brown hair grew down the color. i had it redone last night, and i'm very pleased with the outcome.
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^lights on hehe

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[i'm touching my lip, not my nose!!
last night i chilled with laura and gorgo, we chilled at grass island and talked a lot. this weekend is my mom's bachelorette party- gonna get loaded up in new york [WE'RE GOING TO SALEM, STACEY!!!].

good times.
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(no subject) [May. 18th, 2005|01:27 pm]
[Current Mood |anxiousanxious]

It's set!

June 17th I'm heading for Florida.

I'll be there for about six days.

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(no subject) [May. 15th, 2005|09:56 pm]
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some fun pictures:

[1] shea at my house
[2] shea and i fucking around with his water gun
[3] alex the night he got his new camaro messing around with that very same gun
[4] alex's new camaro once again in the daylight
[5] jenny benny and i

Shea dancing to Jungle Boogie

jungle boooogiiie!

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now that i actually have batts for the camera i need to take more pictures....laura especially, i want pics of us.
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(no subject) [May. 15th, 2005|11:34 am]
[Current Mood |tiredtired]

last night shea took me out.

we were going to see crash, but when we got to the theatre, my friend Mike who was selling tickets warned us that it was really busy and that we probably wouldn't be able to get seats together. so we said fuck that, and he took me out to the city limits diner in stamford, that i've always heard so much about. they make a MEAN fucking burger, oh man... and the atmosphere was pretty damned cool too. they're a little pricey, but the money was well spent.

then we headed over to blockbuster, came home, and watched pulp fiction. i need to own it, i can't believe that i don't own one of my top five ultimate favorite movies, yet i have so many dvds of movies i bought and only watched like, once.

he loved pulp fiction, and of course i enjoyed it... i always do.

BRING OUT THE GIMP! hahaha, it's gotta be one of my favorite lines. they even made a t-shirt off of that line.

today my mother's getting confirmed!

she is going through the whole catholic confirmation process so she get married in the church, and today is her confirmation day! carmine is sponsoring her and today will be the first day in probably... two or so years that i have been to a service. unless you count last christmas morning when i went with rob to the church on the avenue so he could do fire duty- but it doesn't really count i don't think, haha.

i'm not as into organized religion as i used to be, and i don't mind.
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(no subject) [May. 14th, 2005|11:12 am]
[Current Mood |groggygroggy]

cheers!, to an extremely social summer.

yesterday i went over to laura's [lauraliz411] and we caught up some more, and headed over to the may fair at cos cob school. i felt so old watching all the little kids running around everywhere. laura had to go to a movie with her friend carol, and i had to go to carmine's baseball game, so i go to get jenn [agenda] , and we head to the game. there christian [hawkeyechris] comes to meet up with us, and gorgo [rkvanilla] comes down from norwalk. we had fun watching the game, carmine's team whooped ass! then we headed over around the corner to the polish club for a bbq they threw. we ate some good free food and then jenn and i followed gorgo back over to norwalk. shea had nick over his house and suggested we all see a movie but then threw that out the window because they didn't want to really spend much money, and i totally feel on that because i'm broke as it is not having a job and spending money nearly every day on my gas guzzling car. so we just ended up chilling at dunkin donuts- gorgo, jenn, and i. then laura got out of the movies around 10 and came up to chill with us- at that point we were just chilling in the car listening to music because the dunkin scene got a little boring. but it was fun either way.

i have no idea what's going down today- shea said he'd come down with nick and we'll have to just see where the day goes!

hope you all are well!
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(no subject) [May. 13th, 2005|02:44 am]
[Current Mood |cheerfulcheerful]

today was a pretty fun day.

the weather was beautiful, and i had fun playing frisbee with gorgo and kyle today.

although, there was something that put a damper on my day... seeing JASON at a gas station in norwalk. to refresh your memory, jason is the ex boyfriend who ended up dating my best friend. i wanted to KILL when i saw him, just ask gorgo. i was spitting out obsenities for twenty minutes straight. when i saw him i didn't even get the gas, i closed the car door and left, haha. i shoulda been like, "tell your 'new wifey' i said hi." it's so pathetic.

anywaaaays, i went to an ice hockey game tonight..sherk's. he won, whooped ass.

i brought laura and jenn, and there we met up with shea and brian. then the six of us went to dunkin's afterwards, we all had fun.

great day.
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